Moments like these

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I really miss my boyfriend. I can’t stand the pain he’s in. I miss him so much. I just wish I could talk to him about my day, ask him about his, sit there and listen to him talk about things that he loves. He’s the best friend I’ve ever had. Moments like these are so difficult, where I am overwhelmed with wonder and hurt. I don’t like being so far away from him. I don’t like not knowing. I don’t like his suffering. Oh how I feel guilty, selfish, for studying at a university that is so far away.. I want to be physically there for him as he focuses on getting better. Moments like these, where I just break… I realize the brutal reality of my situation. Listening to ‘Late Have I Loved You’ by Gungor on my Spotify is not helping me feel better.  His dad told me that Jerry probably did not want to upset me before tests. I’d rather know than just be completely disconnected. My heart feels so heavy that it hurts.

Although I am overwhelmed, I must trust in Jesus. He’s so good, and although I cannot see it, he’s working. Romans 8:28: “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” Hebrews 13:5: “I will never leave you nor forsake you” (NKJV). . Philippians 4:6: “Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done”

Jerald Update: The doctors don’t know much. They don’t know when he’ll be home anymore. I’m thankful for his cousin Alejandra, for keeping me updated and helping me get through. Please pray for Jerry, for physical strength. Please pray for comfort to my soul in this extremely difficult time.

33 thoughts on “Moments like these

  1. You are so amazingly strong! God bless you and Jerry, and all those who support you. I felt like crying just now, sometimes it feels like my life is just falling apart. But seeing how positive you are through this all has given me strength. I will keep you both in my prayers. Stay strong and never lose faith in God. Keep inspiring us all.

  2. Brittney S.

    Just wanted to tell you that by leaning on God through this, you’re doing the right thing! He’s your place of refuge and your rock, and He will definitely continue to protect both you and Jerald.

    My boyfriend is chronically ill, meaning that we go to the hospital at least every couple of months, so I completely understand what you’re going through – just remember to keep your head high and to keep your trust in God – I’ll definitely be praying for you two.

  3. Our prayers are with you.
    It is a blessing to hear of the faith that our Lord is giving you at such a young age.
    This is a special time for growing in the grace and knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ.
    The Lord bless you and keep you and Jerry until you are together again.
    Jerry and I have been together 52 years and counting.
    We will be in prayer and in touch for updates.
    Mrs. Fran

  4. Dear Yanira,

    Please keep your faith and continue to stay positive! I understand that it’s not an easy period for you, as I’m currently going through this period with my grandaunt. We will definitely keep you both in our prayers as well. Both of you deserve so much more!

    Stay strong, for the angels are with you right now 🙂

    Sending you much love, light & angel blessings! ❤

  5. Keeping you both in prayer Yanira, may you be comforted and encouraged as you read the Scriptures below.

    Isaiah 43:1-3 – Do not be afraid, for I have ransomed you. I have called you by name; you are mine. When you go through deep waters and great trouble, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown! When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you. For I am the LORD, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Saviour.”

    Jeremiah 29 :11-12 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.

    Lamentations 3: 33 For God doth not afflict willingly nor grieve the children of men.

    Christian Love from both of us – Anne

  6. Heavenly Father is very aware of you and Jerry, and the beautiful love you share. I know that He is so very happy that you are turning to him for strength. I am going to look up some scriptures and quotes especially for you and Jerry and put them on my blog today. You are in my prayers. Love, Shanna

  7. I think you have one of the most beautiful souls. I can’t imagine the hardship and pain you must go through at times…but to love someone that unconditionally takes a huge and strong heart. A very special person. I am keeping you and Jerald in my prayers. Stay strong sweet girl!

  8. My thoughts and prayers are with you my dear. It must be so hard to be so far away. Makes me think how homesick Jesus is for us his loved ones. Keep turning to Him for your strength and somehow you will get through. I will keep Jerry on my prayer list. Thanks for stopping by my blog and liking it. Smile Meghan

  9. I get teary eyed every time I finish reading your posts. I just said a prayer for Jerald. I hope he is fighting the battle with all his might. Take care, Yanira. Keep the faith and the strength. God hears and will turn this situation around. Have a blessed day!

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