I’ve been back home since Sunday. I’ll be here for the week. This week has been beyond difficult, but by grace, it’s do-able. Jerry’s situation is not good. He lacks so much rest and is now being regulated for that. For the moment, no visitors are being allowed on account of his need for rest. Yesterday hit hard. We heard really difficult news from the staff at the Hospital. Nothing is certain, the odds are a lot harder to deal with. Everyone is slowly coming to terms with our current situation. Jerald is such a fighter. I had a few good talks with him. The more painful ones were when he actually recognized me. He recognized me on Sunday night when I arrived. I said “Hi babe, it’s me, Yanira.” He said “I can hear you, I can’t see you. It’s really you? Maybe tomorrow I’ll see you.” He kept blowing kisses. Most of the time he doesn’t recognize me and says that my voice is to manly to be his girlfriends. It’s actually quite funny. Most of the time he doesn’t let me hold his hand because I’m not his girlfriend Yanira. Ha-ha. Jerald has caused me to wonder about the spiritual realm few times. He introduced me to his friend on one occasion. He told his friend that I am a third year at Washington State University, and other few facts about me. He asked his friend to take care of me. Although I could not see his friend, in the moment I just felt such a weight lifted from my shoulders, and such an unexplainable peace.
The outcome is so uncertain. . . lots of pain. . . My heart is so heavy for Jerald’s family. They are so, so strong. They manage to stay strong and not let Jerry see them cry. They have been a strong rock for me and have helped keep me and have embraced me as their own. Jerald would be so happy and is in such good hands. He is such an important asset to their family, and even though a lot is at stake, they never break, ever. They inspire me to keep being positive, and happy. I have been dating Jerry for about 2 years and 9 months. I have always just considered myself the girlfriend, because I was sure that as soon we’d get married, I would have a family, I was in no rush. Oddly enough, when I was being told news on Jerry, and I burst out in sadness, it was there where I was embraced by Jerald’s dad, Jerry, and welcomed into the family. It really sucks watching a family suffer over someone so special and distinct to them. I cannot stress how much prayer is needed for their hearts.
Story: I rode with his brother Willy and a couple other people back to Jerry’s house to go eat yesterday. I hadn’t been there since he was healthy. I told Willy that I thought that if I went to his house I would cry. I ate there, I went into Jerald’s room, and nothing. Then we were ready to go and walked out onto the parking lot and I saw that darn Volkswagen bug, where he taught me how to drive manual. Then came the tears.
Jerald update: His ability to drink has gotten a bit better. His sight has worsened, but his hearing is as good a ever. He’s just as sweet as he has always been, just a bit more sassy. 🙂 I ask for prayers over everyone who is hurting over Jerry’s situation. Please pray that God be our joy and our peace in the midst of this terrible storm. I just.. genuinely appreciate every single individual that has taken time from their busy lives just to love on us and give a prayer. The prayers have helped bless me and keep me. Thank you so much.