Beautifully Broken, At Church.

Jesus-loves-me

I do not know about you, but every time I think about how Jesus died for me…and how good he is… my heart can not take it. I tear up. I am at a loss for words. Someone who I go in and out of knowing…. Loves me. DIED for me. Gave me all of him. Intercedes for me… How..? So awesome to serve someone that gave you everything.

So there are days, that I may be crying happy tears (because I am loved), joyful tears (because I am saved), proud tears (because he rose again), sad tears (because Jesus, whom I love, gave up his beautifully lived life just for me)…. beautifully broken tears. This can occur in my home, at my church, my car, anywhere.

The other day I was having a conversation with someone and they said they get embarrassed crying in front of people….especially when no one else is crying. Especially when they does not want to be approached. As a person who struggles and usually refuses to deal with crying, I said “Why in the world not?!” Church is exactly the place for that! You are in God’s house. You are home. Unfortunately, a lot of people are weird about not crying in front of people…and to them I say.. There is POWER in vulnerability, There is BEAUTY in BREAKTHROUGH. ..and if we are too proud to be transparent and as honest as Jesus was… then what are we doing…? Who are we kidding…? I understand, some quiet, prayer closet times are meant to be private between you and God..but I am going somewhere with this.

Sometimes we go throughout our day after having our devotionals are not done fully.. We do not deal with everything. Sometimes we are just focused on telling God how great and how good he is. Although that is great.. we serve a God such a perfect and selfless God, that cares about you, intercedes for you, and constantly wants you to check in with where you are at. Sometimes it does not hit you until you are at church… that:… “God I need you.. God, I am desperate for you..God, I am lost without you…God, I do not understand your goodness.” and that is okay. You can get hit, especially when you feel God’s presence during worship and the word. Matthew 18:20 talks about supernatural things happening when there are two or more gathered. God showing a manifestation of his presence, and where he is, you cannot hide from a breakthroughColossians 1:24 states: “Now I rejoice in my sufferings for your sake, and in my flesh I do my share on behalf of His body, which is the church, in filling up what is lacking in Christ’s afflictions.” So feel safe! Feel at home, and be a walking testimony of beautiful brokenness.

 Romans 8:34 
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New International Version
Who then is the one who condemns? No one. Christ Jesus who died–more than that, who was raised to life–is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us.

 

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Love is perfect, We are not.

walking_alone1 Corinthians 13:4-8

New International Version (NIV)

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking,it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.

Everyone who knows a thing or two has read this word and applied it to their personal life. Almost every girl whom knows of this verse, that I have known models this after their next relationship. When we finally get in a relationship..We aim to be patient and kind. We don’t try to envy. We try not to boast and be proud. We seek to honor and be selfless for the person, to not be self seeking. We aim to be patient with emotion, as we aim to not be easily angered. We try to forgive completely and not bring up wrongs. We try to not delight in what is bad, but rejoice in the truth. We aim to protect our loved one and trust, hope, and persevere through the relationship. I mean, why not? These verses are the best representation of a successful relationship that I can find in the bible. Does this not seem like a recipe for a successful relationship? Of course it is. In many occasions… people have said to remove love on the following verses and place your name. (Insert your name here) is patient, (Insert your name here) is kind. (Insert your name here) does not envy, (Insert your name here) does not boast, (Insert your name here) is not proud. 5 (Insert your name here) does not dishonor others, (Insert your name here) is not self-seeking, (Insert your name here) is not easily angered, (Insert your name here) keeps no record of wrongs. 6 (Insert your name here) does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 (Insert your name here) always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

There is only one problem, we are not….. love. We are human. We fail. Sometimes we are not patient. We are not kind. We envy. We are prideful and boast. We dishonor. We can be self-seeking. Sometimes, we anger easily. We fall short, and delight in evil. Sometimes we forget to rejoice in truth. We forget to protect. We forget to trust. We forget to hope, and we grow weary and fall short of perseverance.

But verse 8 says “Love never Fails.” Verse 8 talks about God’s works. It took a while to realize…the only one who never fails is God. God never fails. So…GOD is patient, GOD is kind. GOD does not envy, GOD does not boast, GOD is not proud. 5 GOD does not dishonor others, GOD is not self-seeking,GOD is not easily angered, GOD keeps no record of wrongs. 6 GOD does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 GOD always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. God is perfect. We are not. As much as we would love and aim to be as selfless and as great as he, we are not. We can only strive to be. When relationships strain and suffer, we must remember that we are not perfect, and we fail, but love never fails.

Oh, but do not get me wrong…Modeling a relationship after 1 Corinthians 13;4-8 is wise. Although we are not perfect. We strive to be the best versions of ourselves that we can be. We strive to be more like God. I used to disregard verse 8, now verse 8 to 13 is my favorite part.

1 Corinthians 13:8-13New International Version (NIV)

Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10 but when completeness comes, what is in part disappears. 11 When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. 12 For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

13 And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.