Jubilant

Today is a good day. I woke up in peace. I woke up in victory. I read in a blog somewhere that if are in peace, you are in victory. I really need to get back on my A game. I have started dressing up a bit more and using more makeup, which automatically makes you feel better if you have a not so good day. I took biotin and calcium today. I’m glad I’m becoming active again. I really need to go to the gym very soon.

Anyway, today I have been reflecting on giving. I have been meditating on this for a few days now. I really want to focus on giving. My Ma always quoted Acts 20:35 when teaching us how to share … “35 In all things I have shown you that by working hard in this way we must help the weak and remember the words of the Lord Jesus, how he himself said, ‘It is more blessed to give than to receive.” 

Sharing is good. I’ve realized that Acts 20:35 speaks more on just sharing the material. Acts 20:35 states that you must give to those around you. You must give your time, your energy, your kindness. Momma always said “It is better to give than to receive.”

So don’t be discouraged if you give something and don’t receive the same thing you give back. Chances are you never will. On the bright side! The more you give the more of a reward in heaven you get. Don’t be discouraged. Move in faith, move in boldness, and move in victory!

Jerald update:
Jerry will have surgery on Monday. He has gone back home for the weekend and will sleep in his bed, also eat real food, for two days. I was stressing out about that and the fact that I hadn’t spoken to him all day so I called my Ma for words of encouragement. I’m so blessed and privileged to have such a strong prayer warrior and woman in faith as my Momma. She’ll set you straight and tell you what you need to hear. I’m so privledged.. Please keep Jerry’s surgery in your prayers.

Always,

Yanira

Hard day.

I feel so tired and drained. My legs feel like noodles. My legs feel bruised. Bruised noodles. I haven’t been able to speak to Jerald today. I really wish…

Jerald is staying in Seattle for a bit more. I guess they are looking into a surgery for his headaches, even though the tumor is inoperable.

I just…

I’ll trust you God.

Proverbs 3:5-6
New International Version (NIV)

5 )Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
6 )in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight.[a]

God, give me your heart

Here is my cry.

I cry out to you God,  give my your heart. I want a heart for your people. I want a heart for the broken, the lost, the helpless, a heart for the world. I am pushing myself to be bold enough to ask you Jesus, for your heart. From the depths of my soul to the depths of your heart. In church we sing “Give us clean hands, give us pure hearts..” We cry out to you for creating a pure heart within us. (Psalms 51:10) …But I don’t want my fleshfull heart. I want your heart. “The human heart is the most deceitful of all things, and desperately wicked. Who really knows how bad it is?” -(Jeremiah 17:9) I seek a heart that loves unconditionally, resiliently. I don’t seek to be run my emotions. I seek a heart like yours, Jesus. I want to love even those who push me away. I want to constantly cover those who turn away from me. As you did. As you died for those who did not know you. I want to have a heart for those who don’t know me. That is my cry this morning. That is my cry this year. I want your heart. Change me. Break me. Mold me. Make me yours. Break my heart for the things that break yours.

I’m Yanira

My Name is Yanira Vargas. I love Jesus. I am a Junior at Washington State University studying Apparel Merchandising & Marketing. I love the color Yellow. I am a middle child of three. My sister Mara (13) and my brother Joser (26). My mom Martha and dad Jose. I was born in Los Angeles California. Raised in Manson, Washington on Lake Chelan. Yes, Seattle-Starbucks-Washington. I have been in a 2 1/2 relationship with Jerald Isenhart, who I love very dearly. He just so happens to have stage 3 brain cancer. Join me as I turn to Jesus and meet my maker.