I do not know about you, but every time I think about how Jesus died for me…and how good he is… my heart can not take it. I tear up. I am at a loss for words. Someone who I go in and out of knowing…. Loves me. DIED for me. Gave me all of him. Intercedes for me… How..? So awesome to serve someone that gave you everything.
So there are days, that I may be crying happy tears (because I am loved), joyful tears (because I am saved), proud tears (because he rose again), sad tears (because Jesus, whom I love, gave up his beautifully lived life just for me)…. beautifully broken tears. This can occur in my home, at my church, my car, anywhere.
The other day I was having a conversation with someone and they said they get embarrassed crying in front of people….especially when no one else is crying. Especially when they does not want to be approached. As a person who struggles and usually refuses to deal with crying, I said “Why in the world not?!” Church is exactly the place for that! You are in God’s house. You are home. Unfortunately, a lot of people are weird about not crying in front of people…and to them I say.. There is POWER in vulnerability, There is BEAUTY in BREAKTHROUGH. ..and if we are too proud to be transparent and as honest as Jesus was… then what are we doing…? Who are we kidding…? I understand, some quiet, prayer closet times are meant to be private between you and God..but I am going somewhere with this.
Sometimes we go throughout our day after having our devotionals are not done fully.. We do not deal with everything. Sometimes we are just focused on telling God how great and how good he is. Although that is great.. we serve a God such a perfect and selfless God, that cares about you, intercedes for you, and constantly wants you to check in with where you are at. Sometimes it does not hit you until you are at church… that:… “God I need you.. God, I am desperate for you..God, I am lost without you…God, I do not understand your goodness.” and that is okay. You can get hit, especially when you feel God’s presence during worship and the word. Matthew 18:20 talks about supernatural things happening when there are two or more gathered. God showing a manifestation of his presence, and where he is, you cannot hide from a breakthrough. Colossians 1:24 states: “Now I rejoice in my sufferings for your sake, and in my flesh I do my share on behalf of His body, which is the church, in filling up what is lacking in Christ’s afflictions.” So feel safe! Feel at home, and be a walking testimony of beautiful brokenness.
Romans 8:34 ►
New International Version
Who then is the one who condemns? No one. Christ Jesus who died–more than that, who was raised to life–is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us.